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Saturday Reckonings….

So I have decided on trying to streamline my life by putting myself on a routine that embodies everything that I love doing.

What are your thoughts on routines? Are they helpful? Or are you one of those people that has everything figured out. If so please tell me your secret.

I feel like I am drowning in the sea of life. It’s overwhelming.

I need a floatation device of sorts. Any ideas?

I feel that all the joy has seeped out of me in one loud pop. Yes it’s obvious that I’m still grieving. I know I promised happy go lucky or in your fact commentary on my life. But it’s just not happening.

Death is so ….overrated. Not that I have been there, but …it’s not fun and it affects so many people. I wish I was one of those people that could believe that she’s in a better place, or is dancing around to fifties music singing with her friends, but I’m selfish. I don’t know if she’s okay, because she’s not with me. I took care of her.

There’s so much emptiness….what am I supposed to do now?

There are bags to unpack….things to sell…and even people to call. But it’s still not right.

My world is in shambles.

That is why I am going to get on a schedule!

Thanks for listening.

Til Then!

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Catching up…

Hi,

Life sucks. I mean that’s plainly put. I have no desire to do anything. I di find a new book idea and told myself I could only write it if I get my previous project completed. I plan on finishing it today. It’s called Someone Like Me originally titled The Girl from Bangkok. Which do you guys like?

At one time I knew of this title website where you put your title in and it told you the probability of it being unique. Anyone know what that’s called? It was fun. It helped me come up with Jaded Proposal.

I graduate in July, but it’s bittersweet. I have no joy about this or the 4th of July, or Christmas. I am actually dreading Christmas this year. I think I am going to boycott it this year.

Among other things her condo is cleaned up and out and we have most of the furniture at our house. A constant reminder, but a good one. Since she was goin to move in with us we have the house how she wanted it.

On the day job front, being that Cathi and I weren’t legally hitched (even though it wasn’t legal at the time) I didn’t get any bereavement time. Therefore I had to use what was left of my personal time. So here’s hoping that the next six months are a breeze.

Well that’s all for now.

I found this funny guy on youtube yesterday. Click the link for a laugh!

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