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Meet the Coopers (movie)

I love this movie. At first I thought it was going to be just another feel good movie about family life that it’s realistic. I was wrong I love being wrong

Diane Keaton was great in this movie, a bit like the character from “Because i said So”, it’s a cute movies. But Olivia Wilde, surprised me in this movie, She’s is gorgeous, I mean if I could have those eyes I would although stye would look weird on my face, but moving on. So the movie was real and fucked up, like all families right.  I’m being distracted. Okay so the characters in the move are real and can literally be anyone in society. That’s what i liked about it.

We all know of the perfect couple hiding the fact that they have fallen out of love and fighting what they think is the end. Then there are those that in the middle of typing to handle being the divorced parent. Add in sibling rivalry, dreams, and jealously this makes for a good feel movie on epic proportions.

There are secrets and lies for no reason, just because people think that the truth can’t be handled, even though we all know it is just made worse by being kept a secret.

Right?  We’ve all heard of the saying that the truth will set you free and it’s true, but a hard pill to swallow.

It’s a story about family and the struggles of new beginnings all centered around Christmas when the feel goods are at their peak.

And yes, Diane Keaton is wearing one of those ridiculous dresses that puff out…

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Self-Doubt

Every hear something or read something on Facebook that hits you right in the gut and makes you think that you’re not good enough. It’s that small voice of doubt that gets louder and louder as the day goes by. If you are like me, it debilitates you. I come home from my day job and instead of working out or writing, I go to bed. Why? Because I don’t think my story should be heard. It’s not real, it’s made up and at times boring. I know as a writer I shouldn’t say that my own writing is boring. It’s just how I feel.

I know that it’s not true. I envy those people that can write whatever they wish and put it out there for the world to see. I know that I can overcome these feelings of doubt, but don’t. It’s not that I like to self loathe, just sometimes it’s comforting. Does that make sense?

I need to kick this habit in the butt!

I really do.

So do you!

I know you want your writing to move forward and sitting or lying around in my case is NOT helping the situation. I need to be proactive. I need to grab the day by its balls and fight for what I want. What do I want? I want to be a successful writer. How do I define success? Easy I want at least 5000 people to read my book and 20 reviews.

I’m almost there….if I count the freebies….I want to make people laugh, get mad, and most of all I want people to read my stories

So….what’s my game plan?

I don’t know yet…but I will let you know when I do.

Missing You!

This past month I had to make the tough decision to put down my dog. To most people this isn’t a big deal, but to me its epic. I’ve had Baby for over ten years. She was the light of my lifr. She lnee just how to cheer me up. Whether it be lying on her back exposing her big belly, or rolling around in the grass. Gosh, I miss ger so mich. 

The common response I get is , “Why don’t you get another dog?” It pisses me off. I can’t iust go get another dog. This “dog” that I had to lay to rest was a family member! She greeted me with a tail wag, smile, and wet kiss when Inwalked through the door. She tried to help me do yoga and often times took me on walks. Its just nost that easy to “get another dog”. 

O’m sure someday I’ll enetettain the idea, but not now. Right now I miss my dog!!!

  

Saturday Reckonings….

So I have decided on trying to streamline my life by putting myself on a routine that embodies everything that I love doing.

What are your thoughts on routines? Are they helpful? Or are you one of those people that has everything figured out. If so please tell me your secret.

I feel like I am drowning in the sea of life. It’s overwhelming.

I need a floatation device of sorts. Any ideas?

I feel that all the joy has seeped out of me in one loud pop. Yes it’s obvious that I’m still grieving. I know I promised happy go lucky or in your fact commentary on my life. But it’s just not happening.

Death is so ….overrated. Not that I have been there, but …it’s not fun and it affects so many people. I wish I was one of those people that could believe that she’s in a better place, or is dancing around to fifties music singing with her friends, but I’m selfish. I don’t know if she’s okay, because she’s not with me. I took care of her.

There’s so much emptiness….what am I supposed to do now?

There are bags to unpack….things to sell…and even people to call. But it’s still not right.

My world is in shambles.

That is why I am going to get on a schedule!

Thanks for listening.

Til Then!

Catching up…

Hi,

Life sucks. I mean that’s plainly put. I have no desire to do anything. I di find a new book idea and told myself I could only write it if I get my previous project completed. I plan on finishing it today. It’s called Someone Like Me originally titled The Girl from Bangkok. Which do you guys like?

At one time I knew of this title website where you put your title in and it told you the probability of it being unique. Anyone know what that’s called? It was fun. It helped me come up with Jaded Proposal.

I graduate in July, but it’s bittersweet. I have no joy about this or the 4th of July, or Christmas. I am actually dreading Christmas this year. I think I am going to boycott it this year.

Among other things her condo is cleaned up and out and we have most of the furniture at our house. A constant reminder, but a good one. Since she was goin to move in with us we have the house how she wanted it.

On the day job front, being that Cathi and I weren’t legally hitched (even though it wasn’t legal at the time) I didn’t get any bereavement time. Therefore I had to use what was left of my personal time. So here’s hoping that the next six months are a breeze.

Well that’s all for now.

I found this funny guy on youtube yesterday. Click the link for a laugh!

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