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Star Wars, the new one

Fear my Jedi Powers bitches!

This pretty much sums it up. There is an article floating around about how the main character Rey could easily have been replaced with a boy. What are your thoughts? I haven’t read the article just a comment one of my friends left. It made me think about the film. They are right. There are only a few spots where it would be awkward. I am not going to say much about that…I am not into spoiling movies, I hope I don’t

So anyway, it was a great film, better than I had imagined. I had to force myself to watch the three original movies and the three new films  liking the third one because it filled in the missing gaps, as to why Vader became the way he did and Leia and Luke were separated.

This new installment fits right in. I enjoyed it. Perched on the edge of my seat in shock, excitement, and happiness. Familiar faces brought a smile to my face, although I was a bit saddened that I didn’t see any Ewoks, the wookie sufficed.

It’s a great movie and I have to admit I was petrified when I heard they were going to make another Star Wars. Equally as scary was learning that Disney now owned the rights…YIKES. Although I have to point out that here lately Disney films/ pixar have taken on a more realistic point of view…I just didn’t want the character to become lost or cartoonish…

Han’s Solo…Prince Leia, Luke, and the new Vader, who got his but whooped by his ….oppssee almost let it out…Anywho…it’s going to make for an interesting next two films. I can’t wait. I want them to come out like…NOW!!!

What did you think?

And what’s up with there not being any Rey toys?? I would think Matel would be all over that shit!!

Self-Doubt

Every hear something or read something on Facebook that hits you right in the gut and makes you think that you’re not good enough. It’s that small voice of doubt that gets louder and louder as the day goes by. If you are like me, it debilitates you. I come home from my day job and instead of working out or writing, I go to bed. Why? Because I don’t think my story should be heard. It’s not real, it’s made up and at times boring. I know as a writer I shouldn’t say that my own writing is boring. It’s just how I feel.

I know that it’s not true. I envy those people that can write whatever they wish and put it out there for the world to see. I know that I can overcome these feelings of doubt, but don’t. It’s not that I like to self loathe, just sometimes it’s comforting. Does that make sense?

I need to kick this habit in the butt!

I really do.

So do you!

I know you want your writing to move forward and sitting or lying around in my case is NOT helping the situation. I need to be proactive. I need to grab the day by its balls and fight for what I want. What do I want? I want to be a successful writer. How do I define success? Easy I want at least 5000 people to read my book and 20 reviews.

I’m almost there….if I count the freebies….I want to make people laugh, get mad, and most of all I want people to read my stories

So….what’s my game plan?

I don’t know yet…but I will let you know when I do.

Changes!

Well the time has come for me to separate my personal writing career from my private writing….sort of. I have created a new blog to specifically to follow my journey into self-publishing.I hope you’ll join me there too.  Head on over for the full cover reveal tomorrow 🙂

Head in the Clouds

So in other news, I discovered a scratch in the middle of my less than a year old glasses. This is horrible maiinly because I only see out of one eye. Blarg!!! I am going to call my eye glass place to see if I have a warranty or something. That would be great….I wonder if they would left me change my frames too….hmmm..

I am getting ready to try It Works thermaplus….I’ll let you know how that goes. I did an awesome job with the 24 day Challenge by Advocare. I can’t wait til I can do another one in three months. I lost 12 inches!!! I am working on loosing another ten pounds. My ambitions are declining….I need to stay motivated!! Any tips?

I think my air conditioner is broke and my cat’s headed outside if he keeps not using the litter box. I don’t understand him. I think he’s just being problematic.

Biggest news of today, I lost my dad’s mother, Ginny this morning. We weren’t really close, but I am reminded that life is short and death sucks!

That’s all for now…I’ll write more tomorrow :).

Frankenstein Review

Wow, so I just finished Frankenstein by Mary Shelley and now wonder why I was afraid to read this book. Okay I listened to it, but still.

It’s nothing like the movies portray. You know the Mad Scientist piecing together a man in a hug dark mansion alone. Nope, didn’t happen. I love she insinuated how he looked without going into great detail. She was more interested in evoking a feeling and I have to admit she nailed. It.

I feel bad for the monster Frankenstein created. It’s not his fault that he is hideous or that he is even alive. It’s his creators fault. Not saying that eh killings were justifiable, but I can see how this can lead t intense anger.

What did you think of it?

Saturday Reckonings….

So I have decided on trying to streamline my life by putting myself on a routine that embodies everything that I love doing.

What are your thoughts on routines? Are they helpful? Or are you one of those people that has everything figured out. If so please tell me your secret.

I feel like I am drowning in the sea of life. It’s overwhelming.

I need a floatation device of sorts. Any ideas?

I feel that all the joy has seeped out of me in one loud pop. Yes it’s obvious that I’m still grieving. I know I promised happy go lucky or in your fact commentary on my life. But it’s just not happening.

Death is so ….overrated. Not that I have been there, but …it’s not fun and it affects so many people. I wish I was one of those people that could believe that she’s in a better place, or is dancing around to fifties music singing with her friends, but I’m selfish. I don’t know if she’s okay, because she’s not with me. I took care of her.

There’s so much emptiness….what am I supposed to do now?

There are bags to unpack….things to sell…and even people to call. But it’s still not right.

My world is in shambles.

That is why I am going to get on a schedule!

Thanks for listening.

Til Then!

Catching up…

Hi,

Life sucks. I mean that’s plainly put. I have no desire to do anything. I di find a new book idea and told myself I could only write it if I get my previous project completed. I plan on finishing it today. It’s called Someone Like Me originally titled The Girl from Bangkok. Which do you guys like?

At one time I knew of this title website where you put your title in and it told you the probability of it being unique. Anyone know what that’s called? It was fun. It helped me come up with Jaded Proposal.

I graduate in July, but it’s bittersweet. I have no joy about this or the 4th of July, or Christmas. I am actually dreading Christmas this year. I think I am going to boycott it this year.

Among other things her condo is cleaned up and out and we have most of the furniture at our house. A constant reminder, but a good one. Since she was goin to move in with us we have the house how she wanted it.

On the day job front, being that Cathi and I weren’t legally hitched (even though it wasn’t legal at the time) I didn’t get any bereavement time. Therefore I had to use what was left of my personal time. So here’s hoping that the next six months are a breeze.

Well that’s all for now.

I found this funny guy on youtube yesterday. Click the link for a laugh!

Life after….

Back at work and don’t know what to do. I mean there’s work of course, but something it’s right. Oh yah that’s right Susie’s gone. Gone, I can’t believe I just wonted that. I mean it feels like she’s on a vacation somewhere and she’s coming back. Not that she’s…gone…it happened so fast. I didn’t get to say goodbye to her. I loved her so much. She was like my mom, 2nd mom.

I use to call her about three to four times while I was work. I just miss her so much. I hate work, it reminds me of her, but I know she’d want me to stay. She would say, “Suck it up lady, at least you have a job.”

She’s right, but I am starting small.

God I miss her so much!! What am I gonna do?

Live…I know…one day at a time. That’s all I can do now. 

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